i am rhonel

This blog shares my sacred journey through tragedy.  I was called for audacious hope whilst grieving a living loss.  And I had to choose – will I be better or bitter? 

What if?   For a long time I lived by these words.  What if the accident never happened?  And then the follow up line:  “She should have started grade 1 this year”  or “She should have been walking, talking, eating, seeing, smiling, laughing”…  So many should have been’s and could have been’s stealing my joy from me.

And then inevitably these thoughts took me to a place of immense loss and sadness.  I felt robbed, my dreams invaded.  Bitterness like lead in my soul.

One day my best friend introduced me to a song by Laura Story, challenging my thoughts and stubborn self-pity.  It is a song called Blessings.

It starts with the question:  What if?  And immediately I was captured.  Here is someone who understands!  But then she continues:  “‘Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops?  What if Your healing comes through tears?
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You’re near?
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise?”

I slowly started to accept the truth in these What if’s. Gaining wisdom from the deep understanding that what is, is what should be.  And only what we have, is real. Everyday is perfect in its imperfection.  Everyday is rich in its lessons, and joyful in its gifts.

What if your life is exactly as it should be?







One thought on “What if?

  1. Lenie Lubbe says:

    Inspiring, soos altyd Rhonel!!Dankie!! Xx


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